for some reason – or maybe the reason is very clear – i have found myself in contact with several people recently who have inspired me, people who are living very much in touch with a deeply held beleif, who live their principles, and just by looking at how they live, you can tell what they belive in. some of these are people i know, some are people i don’t know – it doesn’t matter. maybe it’s just that i have opened up in some way to hear them, maybe they all came together in some sort of synchronicity – it doesn’t matter.
but it has me thinking about how i live my life. it has me thinking about my response to ms, about my response to my overall health. it has me thinking about my fantasies – of travel, of being a photographer. do people look at me, and understand what principles guide my life? do i look at myself and know what principles guide my life?
i have started daily meditation again, and find that i am carrying that practice with me throughout my day. i’m finding myself a little more aware of where i place each step, so to speak – of what i put in my mouth, of what i say to people, of where my mind wanders to, of what i say when i talk to myself.
anyway, this is all stuff i’ve come to from time to time over the course of the past 40-some-odd years (and some of them have been very odd), but it really feels different this time. who knows.
and does it really matter?