ok, i’m over it. i’m still angry at multiple sclerosis, i’m still mourning the things i’ve lost, still struggling to deal with the adaptations it requires. but i’m taking another step.
i had a tai chi teacher many years ago who taught that we should go thru the entire form, as the progression of movements is called, and then step into the next moment as if nothing had happened. not to stop and think, “gee, look what i just did, i did a whole tai chi form, good for me!” but to take the next step into the next moment.
i have been working with a physical therapist for the last few weeks, and we just agreed that beyond the stretches she had given me, there wasn’t much else she could do. she suggested i give tai chi a try, reviving my old practice, as she thought it would help my lower body strength and balance. the next morning, i did about 2 minutes of it, repeating the opening few steps a few times, and was amazed at how hard it was, and how now, several days later, i am still feeling it in my legs and hips. i guess i am more out of shape than i thought.
she also suggested i meet with the adaptive sports person, to talk about handcycles and sit-skiing, both of which have me all excited. i for some reason never gave either of them a thought, and now the idea that i could be out there biking around is very interesting. of course, i see myself in the boston marathon already – patience, grasshopper.
i really appreciate the support i get from you readers and commenters. it means a lot, more than the support i get from most other people.
and yes, i had a very happy birthday, thank you for all of your wishes. one more year before AARP kicks in!