talk about facing fear. i am leaving gainful employment on the 12/31, and hoping i’m not condemning my family to a life of poverty. not that i was all that big a breadwinner, but i did bring home the health insurance which, as we are finding out, was no small matter. well, we’ll get it sorted i’m sure.
i’m feeling less anxious about it than i was- whatever that’s about. i do think that a several-weeks of near inability to walk is stress-related. i plan to spend the first few weeks doing some serious resting, see if some of my symptoms don’t improve. then i gotta find a way to make a few $$, and otherwise employ myself.
anyway, a few new adventures on the horizon. i hope i survive.
also starting cytoxan in the near future. we have to do some labs first (a nice way of saying draw a lot of blood) to get some baselines, then it’s a four-hour infusion once a month, with labs in between. i’m going to be a pin cushion. and hoping that the one nurse at the infusion center who once gave up trying to hook me up in tears because she just couldn’t find the vein – hoping she is either gone or much improved.
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