two more days

talk about facing fear. i am leaving gainful employment on the 12/31, and hoping i’m not condemning my family to a life of poverty. not that i was all that big a breadwinner, but i did bring home the health insurance which, as we are finding out, was no small matter. well, we’ll get it sorted i’m sure.

i’m feeling less anxious about it than i was- whatever that’s about. i do think that a several-weeks of near inability to walk is stress-related. i plan to spend the first few weeks doing some serious resting, see if some of my symptoms don’t improve. then i gotta find a way to make a few $$, and otherwise employ myself.

anyway, a few new adventures on the horizon. i hope i survive.

also starting cytoxan in the near future. we have to do some labs first (a nice way of saying draw a lot of blood) to get some baselines, then it’s a four-hour infusion once a month, with labs in between. i’m going to be a pin cushion. and hoping that the one nurse at the infusion center who once gave up trying to hook me up in tears because she just couldn’t find the vein – hoping she is either gone or much improved.

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Author: Stephen

Stephen Harris is a writer, painter and a photographer who lives with his family in Maine.

2 thoughts on “two more days”

  1. As usual, I don’t have any useful advice, but wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and your family. I hope that 2010 will bring many changes for the better, that you will find that balance point that works for you, and that cytoxan will do good things.

  2. Thinking of you today…I guarantee that you WILL feel much better in your body when you’re able to go at your own pace and get enough daily rest…honest!
    One of my friends, a fellow who also has MS, is thinking of starting Cytoxan…may it go well for you.
    Happy New Year!

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