from time to time, i begin to ponder if the “use it or lose it,” philosophy applies to things like walking when one has ms. am i doing irreparable harm to my future mobility by relying so heavily, even around the house, on my wheelchair? or is there some benefit to using the walker/crutches? after a while, they both become exhausting, and i seem to be dragging my feet around more than actually “walking,” which i can do for a short period if i really focus on picking up my feet and going very slowly. i will admit to feeling like more of an invalid and disabled person than i like to feel by relying on the chair, and my back hurts after a day spent in it. both modes of locomotion have their advantages.
but is the “use it or lose it,” just a subconscious denial of the inevitable progression of ms, and will i lose it anyway, regardless of the struggle to keep “walking” as long as i can? i plan to get the walker out today, and make that effort for as long as i can, if only to prove to myself that i still can. but am i only fooling myself?